#autistic musician

[surrah698]

BUZZ BUZZ =😖

Lol it's true! 😅🤣

[indianchindian]

Some more smiley and laughing Kenshi Yonezu which always warms my heart ❤️💖😭🥹

[nonna-thefolkgremlin]

hello! my name is nonna(she/they) and i write, record, and produce music with the help of my guitar, goose.(yes i name my instruments shhhh)

i write predominantly alternative folk/indie folk, but dabble in other genres as well! i’m working on recording an album right now, and i’m looking forward to releasing it this november!!

i’m so excited to share this journey on tumblr!!

[socratena]

I have a podcast now!!!

Introducing the SocraPod! The Socratena Podcast 📻

It's been a long time since I've used Tumblr - some of you might remember my old blog @wasabitsunami and a collection of extremely cringe side-blogs. I took a loooooooong break from about 2016, because I was terrified of my content being misinterpreted, and starting arguments. It also got increasingly hard to make it as a musician on youtube, especially a parody artist.

But now I have a podcast! And you can still find my comedy music, but mostly on Tiktok now.

Come and join me as I talk about being a neurodivergent musician, mental health, digital footprints, and being chronically online. I'd love to hear your thoughts too!

Oh yeah, and did I mention I live in the UK now?! 😱

It's good to be back Tumblr! ❤️❤️❤️

[changeling6]

Eyes Closed

When I was young

They cut the eyelids out of my head

Told me it was for the best

Lest they find me in the streets dead

I don't think I'll ever know

The cost of tears falling from my eyes

To people who

Keep on their days with no will to compromise

I was born on the horizon

So I could see everything

From the sorrow den of lions

And what goes through night and day

And the winter is calling

So I set the sun

Upon the edge

Of tomorrow's smoking gun

I don't know

What life is like with eyes closed

Jumping at every step

Patience has gone on to rest

I don't know

What it's like to think of tomorrow

When I can't rest my head

Eyes open to speak with the dead

Did those cracks seem

So big just a few years ago

Glowing green

Of monsters that wait in the throes

I know what I've seen

It's not like I dream anymore

They may be free

With someone who does not dream of war

I was born on the horizon

So I could see everything

From the flowing den of diamonds

To the poisonous river's spring

I was born for the hunt

But if I'm hunter or hunted, I can't tell

Because when I get close to anyone

We run before we draw from the well

I don't know

What life is like with eyes closed

Jumping at every step

Patience has gone on to rest

I don't know

What it's like to think of tomorrow

When I can't rest my head

Eyes open to speak with the dead

Can you take your hand

And cover up my eyes

So I could meet with the Sandman

And uncover them when morning arrives

I can't understand

Why I was forced into this life

I live on no land

I'm on the run from the pain of the time

Do you know

What life looks like with eyes closed

Painting every word in my head

I'm sorry for the way that I left

But do you know

What it's like to plan for tomorrow

When wealth will enter your hand

And when the dreams welcome you again

[vulpine111]

I plan to spend as much of my day as possible learning guitar!

I found a channel on YouTube that teaches chords common in punk style music. It seems like a good place to start. Once I have all that down, I'll aspire to more complex styles, I hope.

I made a playlist with some vids from SugarPill Productions and other channels.

I just took my methadone but hopefully it doesn't make me nap for too long after it kicks in.

I still don't have the right mask for my CPAP machine. I don't understand what's taking them so long. I might call my care coordinator and see if she got them to choose a fitting day for me yet.

They've really been dragging their feet.

[lithium-91-moved]

actually can we get a list going of musicians who’ve self-identified as autistic /aspergers/on the spectrum? i’ll start

Peter Tork (The Monkees)

David Byrne (Talking Heads)

Dave Gahan & Martin Gore (Depeche Mode)

Adam Young (Owl City)

[spademooncake]

I hate to brag, but...

I can officially play the Song of Unhealing on the piano as of last Monday! This also means that I can legally make the original Song of Healing sound scary as hell by reversing it 😆 y'all are welcome 😉😇👻

[ofdinosanddais1]

I accidentally made my first EP a metaphor for Erikson's stages of development like:

Everbe: Trust vs mistrust, autonomy vs shame/doubt. You are born. You are a body. You are learning to trust your body. You are learning to develop autonomy. You are not conscious yet but the one thing tying you to every living being on this planet is that you have a body.

Eversee: Initiative vs Guilt, Industry vs Inferiority. You have gained awareness of your existence. You cannot influence the world around you easily. You're learning by observing. You're learning of what it means to exist.

Everthink: Identity vs Confusion. You are developing an identity. You are trying to develop with a million people throwing things at you about what you shoulf be. You're trying to find identity while everyone is trying to decide it for you. You are trying to learn about your everyday while everyone is trying to nitpick everything about you. You are trying to learn about yourself.

Everknow: Intimacy vs Isolation. You are trying to learn about the world. You are trying to learn about other people. You are trying to learn about the environment. Intimacy is more than sex and romance. You must become intimate with knowledge.

Everchange: Generativity vs Stagnation, Integrity vs Despair. You now want to have a place in the world. You have this knowledge about yourself and everything else and now you want to use it to lead, to change, to grow, to help.

A lot of my music writing process is just my brain dumping something into my notes app and then later I'll reread it and be like "wait a minute. I'm onto something here." And honestly I feel like its a gift of knowledge from maybe the Universe as a whole or even Divine knowledge from the Gods. I don't know. But it exists and I made it exist and it means something more than I intended it to mean.

[cosmicblueautie]

As per tradition, blue will not be a color door #AutusmAcceptanceMonth. We light it gold around here! #ActuallyAutistic.

[surrah698]

I have attracted these types and been in relationships with them multiple times.

😭 Us neurodivergent peeps are super suseptible to certain types of predatory personalities.

I wrote a song about how it feels to be in a relationship with them.

linktr.ee/Surrah698

[indianchindian]

My favorite shots from the Azalea MV. Felt like making gifs of it :)

[nonna-thefolkgremlin]

I love using aspects of fantasy creatures to refer to certain people in my life. The dragon, for example, is about a protector and a safe space.

But I love just going off and saying, “why would i write about love when life is so much more complex than that?”

Not throwing people who write about love in a bin. I love that people can write about romantic love and be genuinely passionate about it and connect with it, but that’s not something I’m capable of. I can write about familial or platonic love with almost zero issues because I experience those emotions a lot. When I write, it’s a matter of what I connect with the most emotionally in that moment. Whether that’s compassion, grief, frustration, or confusion, it’s just how I process things.

I need to physically write it out, or play it, to release it. Music has been a release for me, a way I can express myself without feeling the judgement of those around me in real time. I can form stories that have aspects of my own life, but are not entirely my story. They’re just pieces that form together to create my story.

This is a lot, I know, but I’m hoping that if you’re reading this and have feelings and emotions that are too much or seem like they are not enough, you are not alone.

[clarafyer]

Turns out the way I learn music is actually most definitely linked to me being neurodivergent

Big big ramble about the autistic musical experience under the cut

So I kinda suck at reading sheet music. I mean, I can sight read, but when solely provided with the sheet music and ONE listening of the recording when we initially get the music, I'm a lot slower at figuring it out than other people.

The other day me and my friends were practicing S&E stuff, and I decided to mess around and jam, and I thought of playing this song I know pretty well in my head and occasionally sing when I'm home alone (the Natlan theme song from Genshin) I never played it before, and figured it out completely as I went. They called me a wizard, all that disbelief and I was genuinely confused at how they were saying that's impossible for them to do.

But I see it like when you listen to a song enough and you end up knowing the lyrics by heart, it's that but with just the notes instead. I also visualize my music a lot, imagining this honestly indescribable visual as the music plays out that changes with volume, note, tone, etc. It's not quite ups and downs, but also kind of is... Like I said, indescribable. Look of the synesthesia artists (also I don't have synesthesia this is very likely just related to autistic pattern recognition but in sounds)

I also take from specific songs too to help discern sharps and flats on my bass clari, SPECIFICALLY I REFERENCE WE ARE NUMBER 1 IN MY HEAD IN CASE MY BRAIN FARTS AND FORGETS WHAT A HALF STEP UP SOUNDS LIKE- another one I reference is DDLC's Your Reality for basic major 3rds, 5ths, and the note G.

Also I feel like a lot of people, when they wanna learn a specific song just for fun and struggle with sharps and flats just due to fingering positions, don't... Transpose it down..... To a key with less sharps and flats............ This feels like common sense to me as an intermediate/advanced student but I did just watch a video about how what we see as common sense is just our heightened awareness and sensitivity, which is why I'm writing this whole thing in the first place bc it actually makes a lot of sense how I get so confused and frustrated that others don't understand this very simple thing to me that I think of as common sense

Back to music, I feel like if you can sing, you can play your instrument too. Being able to sing actually makes it a lor easier, because if you know the song you're playing already from before like if it's from a movie, then just pick out your part in the recording and sing along, if you miss a note, then just play it by ear to some humming (reminder this is not like an advice thing this is how my brain works with music and what my inner voiceover is saying during band classes)

When I don't remember a section at all, I just listen to the others and find a harmonizing note. Learning harmonizing 3rds, 4ths, 5th, and especially 7ths omg I love 7ths so much can really come in handy when you forget midway through a song.

But then I get hit with "you don't need to memorize it though? Just read the music" EXCUSE ME WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT WDYM YOU DON'T GET MUSCLE MEMORY AFTER PLAYING THIS SONG FOR WEEKS??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T RELY ON THAT LATER ON WH

People learn differently, I know that. I'm just recounting my experiences since realizing neurodivergency is why my musical experience is sooooosososo different than my friends'.

[changeling6]

The Whales That Live In Dying Seas

I built my foundation on tectonic plates

Deep beneath the sea

A story carved us into the stone

Moving us where we need to be

But when tidal waves tear us apart

From the motor in the boat

That burns off the fuel of stars

I must wonder where we went wrong

And find our way back to the start

Bleed upon your land for me

The earth will know where you belong

Your soul will fall into the sea

Where whales will write you into their songs

But if you build your colony

The sirens will find what you love

And lure you in to steal your body

There is no creature that you are above

I live in a home right where

The sand will meet the sea

I walk upon this earth on grass

Where the stars point me to be

And if you put your ear

To the ground you'll hear

She's crying out for you

Because of what you do

An explosion of violins

Erupting from the violence

That we choose to bring here

I hope it fills you up with fear

Cause the jungle's miles of veins

Will tangle us all up

And work itself into our brains

The trees know just what you don't

And what you refuse to obey

Bleed upon your land for me

The earth will know where you belong

Your soul will fall into the sea

Where whales will write you into their songs

But if you build your colony

The sirens will find what you love

And lure you in to steal your body

There is no creature that you are above

If all the water from your tap

Grew thick and turned all black

Would you know just what you've done

Or is it till smoke fills up your lungs

You can't separate, you belong to this

You can't escape into the endless abyss

And find another planet to ruin

Bleed upon your land for me

The earth will know where you belong

Your soul will fall into the sea

Where whales will write you into their songs

But if you build your colony

The sirens will find what you love

And lure you in to steal your body

There is no creature that you are above

I did not make this bed for you

So why do I have to lie in it too?

I didn't dig up the fossil fuels we use

Yet the blame is all on us for the earth you abuse

[tkmarcic]

any other music players out there find one riff that you really like and then play on repeat non stop or am i just autistic